Living the day as if nothing is wrong is not impossible when everything seems to crash down on you.. but it can be tricky.. Memories that pops up makes you lose your stability of your own emotions.. one second you're happy, the next you feel like you're caught in an endless nightmare.

I have a dream..

Frustrated

...

Should I?

ok.. I forgot to blog.. been busy.


But wednesday when we went to my aunt's house she gave us a total of 25 mascaras, 15 eyeliners, make-up bags.. lotions, perfumes, I got 20 pair of underwears lol..



I almost forgot that it's my birthday in 2 weeks.. haven't thought about it.. cause the time here flies by fast when all you do is working.. the same routine every day.. wake up, work, go home, sleep.. and suddenly a week pass by..

it's almost April.. I remember the time in Sweden.. I wasn't this isolated.. I usually walked around, played soccer, basketball.. came up with pranks with Carro.. had coffee and enjoyed the sunshine.. I miss it..

here..I barely see the sun even though the weather is great..

I'm thinking of having a party.. but haven't decided yet.. And I don't know what I want for my b-day either.. I'm turning 20.. feeling old... but still young at the same time.. wth. I don't really wanna grow up.. soon to be 2 decades old..

At my aunt's house

omg.. she is spoiling me and my sister.. blogging more about what stuff we got from her later.

Quen

Me and my sis are back to the gym again. Getting ready for summer. It's been a long day even for me..

I have had a lot of thoughts lately.. How my life is about to turn out.. what decisions have to be made.. I think it kinda stress me out..

People who are trying to come close to me, I push away without hesitating. Just for one reason...

Me and my sis came back home at 12 midnight.. We don't have much freetime.. Steaming and taking showers at the gym is taking time too.. I give BMW a bad name... cause I have to be the slowest driver with a BMW ever lol..

Going back to the gym tomorrow.

Sweet dreams..

I'll be fighting with u

Just came back from the gym.. Goal: lose 8 pounds.. that's what I've been gaining since June last year..

oh well.. this morning we bought car insurance for me.. came back to work at 11-12 something.. busy!! got out of work after 10.pm .. then straight to the gym..

have to take a shower now..

It's sad that I've been trying on 23 pair of jeans in 4 different stores and none of them fits the way I want.. it's so haaard.. The part I hate the most of my body has to be my legs.. to short and chubby.. and my butt is flat but wide.. what is that? unfortunately I have no plans on changing that.. cause I'm to lazy.. I own at least 10 pair of black pants.. those are the best.. goes with everything..



Just been working a lot today.. went to China King buffet after work.. I'm doomed now..



feeling bloated..

Lol hihihi

Don't worry, I'm as straight as can be..

I'm looking back and think of the days full of laughter and sunshine.. I look around and see nothing but an empty room and darkness.. Depression took it's effect on me.. I believe that one day I will find my happiness. it's only a matter of time..

for 2 weeks I got to see the friend I treasure the most.. The happiness she gave me is something I'm willing to pay for no matter what price.. if I have to pay her the whole ticket next time.. I will do it.. Can't wait until next year it's gonna be sooo soo fun.. cause this year she came at a cold season we couldn't do anything.. but next year we gonna go to the beautiful beach and get a hotel.. or maybe I should take her to Florida Disney World.. haven't decided yet.. but it's gonna be awsome!!

Laying on my bed... alone.. My sis and her boyfriend just went to Wal Mart to buy some groceries.. I guess I have to start getting used to this.. being alone.. Cause my sis gonna move in with her boyfriend after summer.. of c she's taking her dogs with her.. I don't know how to handle the loneliness.. it's gonna be so quiet every day.. Living in a house.. ALONE.. Waking up.. ALONE.. eating ALONE.. what a lonely life... I fear that day.. cause everybody knows I'm afraid of the dark.. I can't handle a house myself...

From outer space

A rainy day

The last day at the nail shop.. saying good bye to everybody..

It's raining.. can it be more depressed? however.. Me, my sis and her boyfriend might go and see The last airbender today.. I don't wanna be the third wheel.. but.. they want me to come..

Friday already

My bed has a lot of space now.. Usually during the mornings I try to wake her up and poke on her.. At night we talk non-stop.. Miss her..

I wonder if Carro made it safe home.. haven't heard of her yet.. Yesterday was so quiet at the shop. I hated it.. Cause I keep imagine.. what if Carro was here.. what pranks should we do this time... And how much I would have laugh at her funny actions.. I've never laughed so much during 2 weeks straight..

I don't hang around much, and I'm very picky about my friends.. I rather have 1 true friend than 100 fake ones.. I am very shy at the beginning but when u once get close to me and I feel comfortable, I do crazy things that no one would ever imagine me doing.. I might look mature.. but people get deceived.. cause I am very immature..

I need a major diet now.. since Carro came we've only been eating junks.. Buffe a couple of times.. deep fried stuff.. doughnuts, pretzels, ice-cream.. desserts..

the only things we cooked during the 2 weeks were fried tofu and bacon as breakfast.. it's bad! haven't been eating anything healthy at all.. I can feel the effect on my body.. lol

Now when Lim is here we can't work out.. cause my sister gonna spend time with him.. urgh.. I'm so lazy... Maybe I should eat less..

have to get ready for work now.. have an appointment at 10.00 am.. can't be late..

=(

Urggh.. this feeling.. of loneliness.. I don't like it at all.. And the weather seems so gloomy.. My bff is gone now =( the sunshine disappeared.. time to go back being emo.. at least she left me great memories for life.. Whenever I feel lonely I just think of them and smile.. Miss you!

It's gonna be so empty =(

I just realized how much I'm gonna miss her.. 2 weeks went by to fast.. I've never had a better friend.. She always makes me and other people laugh..

If you've met her and spent time with her.. you'll understand why I adore her so much.. Everybody here likes her a lot.. She's a great person inside and out.. We've been friends since third grade and never once had a fight.. They say that true friends have to fight sometimes.. But I don't think so.. True friends should trust each other and stick together.. I gave her 100% trust.. and she haven't disappointed me through the years..

We can have fun no matter where on earth we're standing.. Even if we're sitting in an empty dark room.. I think there would be laughter from us.. cause both of us are saying crazy things.. gonna miss the craziness =(

We all gonna miss her a lot.. The people working at the nail shop loves her.. She's always welcome to come back.. Next year it will be.. gonna hire her for summer hihihi..

it's funny when she first came to America she only had underwears packed in her luggage.. and 10 Marabou chocolate.. Now she have no space in her luggage.. and have to put the rest of the stuff in her handbag.. Been shopping to much maybe? I bought her a lot of gifts.. and wanted to buy more.. unfortunately no more space..

When nobody is watching

Carolina's dessert

My sis's dessert..

This is my favorite dessert of all time!! Frozen Irish nutman or whatever it's called.. It's so perfect!!

Green Valley Grill

Sunday night we went to Green Valley Grill.. My favorite place for dessert :P After Dinner we went to see a Alice in Wonderland.. I actually liked it hihi..

Mi&Carro outside GVG

What to order?

Carros order..

My order...

Michelle hihi

Beautiful Sunday

hihi we could make a cute couple

True friendship creates happiness

I wanna see you lose control

Last night we went out again.. the last day out for Carro.. She's going back home on Wednesday =( She told me she don't wanna go home cause she was having so much fun.. and promised to come back next summer.. She's gonna work for us the summer next year hihi.. I love love love her so much..

We decided to match each other lol.. :P

Wednesday

HOOTERS!

Wednesday me, my sis and Carro went to greensboro early in the morning to do some stuff with my uncle.. after we were done my uncle said I was gonna take the driving test.. I was like wtf?! No I'm so not ready.. cause he only taught me driving 3 times.. which is a total of 3h.. It was sick.. I felt so nervous and sick in my stomach... But he said it's ok, just take the test as a lesson to learn the mistakes..

I went over there.. took the driving test.. and passed.. it was a jaw-dropping moment.. not only for me but for everyone.. lol.. Even now I don't understand why I got my license.. just a few days ago I didn't know how to drive a car.. Now I have a license.. ???? After I got my license me, my sis and Carro went to eat Vietnamese food.. ^__^

My sister and Carro wanted to celebrate me.. So we decided to go party at night.. of course I was the one driving while they were drinking...

We never went home to get ready, went to my aunt's house instead.. I didn't have my clothes so I borrowed a simple shirt from her.. But before we went out we had a pre-party with ourselves in my aunt's huge house.. it was crazy.. Sang karaoke and ran around like some crazy monkeys.. But it was fun though.. Cause it was only the three of us in the house..

After getting ready we got hungry.. We got the idea of going to Hooters.. Ate some chicken wings and got a picture of some of them hihi.. after eating we went to Inferno.. Met up with some friends there..

some things happened in the club and I don't feel good about it.. Right now I just wanna be left alone...

Tuesday

On our way buying some breakfast hihi.. worked the rest of the day... so busy even though it was snowing.. Carro went shopping and came back with at least 10 bags.. I am not kidding..
we were planning to go to Hooters today lol.. one of our customer works there.. she's hot.. she only work on mondays and tuesdays.. guess we have to do it next week..

Monday - shopping in Charlotte

SHOPPING

Carolina, Me, Mai, Havy

A funny thing happened.. the girl in blue and me were chatting on the internet 3 years ago when I was still living in Sweden. Never would I thought I would see her in real life just by chance.. one of our friend picked her up.. I introduced myself.. then went shopping with Carro in a store.. My sister ran in and said that this girl in blue told that she knew me before she met me.. all of us were shocked.. lol ... she recognized me by my face from the pictures.. it was really funny.. what a small world we're living in..

Sunday - Sushi+Karaoke

Havy, Sophia, Carro, Mi

At Kabuto

Ren hooked us up with this beautiful sushi boat... Love love love it! He does the best sushi according to me..

After eating we went Karaoke.. fun fun fun ^^

Carro and the Viets lol.. Toan and Qui

Havy and Qui

Saturday - Inferno

Went clubbing Saturday night

Friday

Carolina was doing my nails.. she's helping out a lot in the shop when we're busy.. she's doing a great job and everybody loves her over here..

And the result lol

Watched The Orphan and ate Buffalo Wild Wings.. YUMMY!

Finished with some ice cream hihi (notice my pretty nails)

can't even count how much junk we've been eating lately.. we kill the food in seconds.. but it's so gooooood!!