Juicy Couture

I got this Juicy Couture pink outfit from my older sister as a b-day gift.. I haven't used it yet until now.. it's so expensive!!! and she asked if I wanted more.. The price tag from the track jacket was $138.. and the pants should be about the same price.. damn... It's really pretty and I love it.. But it's nothing I would ever pay for myself.

Whenever I find time for myself I'm gonna try to work out my butt lol.. I've always hated that part of my body.. and my thighs.. and I'm gonna try to get some abs.. so much promise so little action...... I hope I can change that!

lady in red

This is not the new design of y blog.. I was just playing around a little.. and I'm lazy to actually do anything right now about my blog.. these weeks has been hectic.. I don't think I've relaxed for a second.. my mind is so stressful right now that I don't even know where to begin..

Last Friday was the back to school party.. I wore a red dress with an opening in the back.. It was a last minute decision but it seemed to turn out pretty good..

Break even

If u could feel what I feel.....

I feel like... I've been doing something wrong.. I keep blaming myself for my own actions.. I can't forgive myself sometimes.. At the moment I am happy.. but also devastated.. It's a scar in my heart that cannot be healed right now... I feel terrible.. and I can't do anything about it...

Everyday is not a dance on roses.. I'm so stressed with the fact that everything happens at the same time.. it's like rocks are throwing at me.. and I can't even avoid them.. if u asked me if I am ok.. of course I'm not gonna load off my problems on anyone..

what should I do...

I don't know where to start.. it's been a decade since I've been back here.. But I need a place where I can reset my mind a little...

My best friend has been keeping me busy for 2 months,.. After the 2 months my mom and younger sister came to visit.. It's been the 4 best months of my life so far.. But now they all went back to Sweden, which is not just a minute away.. It's ridiculos how far it is.. and last but not least my older sister is in Wisconsin.. so here I am alone with my aunt ( I can't cling on to her ).. I can't complain cause everybody has been good to me.. It's just the depression that brings me down..


I really wish everything will be ok for my mom and sister.. they are sitting on the flight back.. All I can do is pray... Cause they mean everything to me..