Make a difference

Do you remember the $100 I won? I decided to give it all away.. The money wasn't mine in the first place anyways.. There are people who needs it more than I do.. What would I do with $100 dollars? shopping? party? Don't think so.. I have more than enough for myself.. I believe that the money was sent to me for a good cause...

I found out that a 9 year old girl had to take care of her little family because her mom is really sick and can't really afford getting into the hospital.. The situation is very critical.. She fainted the other day and her husband went to the hospital with her.. but they sent her home again because they didn't have enough money.. they also said she will die if she doesn't get a surgery....

It's hard to just close your eyes and ignore those people who really are in need.. When reading how much help she needed my eyes were covered in tears.. 9 years old and taking the role as a mom? she had to cook and do everything at home including taking care of a 13 months old baby girl.. cause her mom can barely move and her dad has to do everything he can to earn money for their living.. and I believe it's not gonna be enough for a heart surgery..

So I'm giving away $100 without any hesitation..

I also donated $30 to Japan.. I just can't stand watching people suffering without lending out an helping hand.. My heart is suffering with those people.. I know It won't make much of a difference.. But if everybody is thinking like that then it really won't make a difference.. People are risking their life out there.. Working and knowing in their minds that they might die or not have a normal life after they accomplished their work at the nuclear plant, if they even can accomplish it.. The radiation in reactor 2 has already increased to 10 millions times higher than normal.. There are still children who are waiting anxiously for their parents to come back.. Parents that most likely already past away during the disaster..

If everybody took their time to send just $1 each, it would help a lot instead of put "like" on Facebook for every "pray for Japan" page.. that makes no sense.. Why I decided to not give my $100 to Japan is because they got a lot of help from other people already.. What we are forgetting is that there also are millions of other suffering out there.. but they are either invisible or forgotten.. I wish I could help all of them.. But it's not easy for one person.. I am not a Miss World or Miss Universe who wants to create world peace and stuff.. It's never gonna happen..

Human beings are too greedy and you can't raise everybody to become "angels".. it's already in our nature.. We are fighting to survive.. Even if there is peace and everybody got the same amount of stuff.. There will always be greedy people who wants more and take the lead... The weaker will give up while the stronger sees their chances.. and so the war begins...

But I know I can make a difference in some peoples life.. Everybody deserves a chance to live their life to the fullest... I know the world is unfair... Life is not easy for everybody.. My last name is not Hilton so things won't get served on a silver plate for me.. But I'm not giving up for that.. I wish I had more to give.. But I have my own stuff to prioritize first.. Maybe I am a little greedy after all.. But I'm giving away the amount I can give away right now.. it's better than nothing...

Take a chance!

Everything has happened so quickly to me.. These 2 past years a lot of changes have been made.. It's been a lot of ups and down.. I've been crying, laughing, sobbing, smiling..

I believe some of you think I was born with silver spoon in mouth.. That's definitely not the case.. I was born in a family who literally had nothing..We were happy if we even had a spoon to begin with.. We started out from scratch.. But we never stopped in believing..

What I mean by this is, It's not impossible to become successful.. Don't give up when you just got halfway..

I'm 20 about to be 21 in just a month.. Never in my life have I imagined to come so far with my life this early.. I feel like in just 2 years I've jumped from being a kid, transforming into an adult.. and I haven't even hit my 21 st birthday yet..

It's been a lot of hard decisions involved.. Saying goodbye to a country u were raised in.. saying goodbye to the people u love, people that u grew up with.. it really hurts.. But leaving from there, I knew that I could only move forward..

I was afraid of changes.. I was never this adventurous girl.. I always stick with the safest side.. but then I realized, it will never get me nowhere being safe and secure.. If there are doors open up for u and u shut them down.. You will never make any progress.. U will always stay where u are and continue with the same directions.. You have to make sacrifices, u have to dare to fail in order to become successful, in order to accomplish your goals and make the best out of your life.. Life is all about taking risks, taking chances... if u missed this train try to catch another one..

Was it just a dream?

Do you believe in stuff from above? Karma, life after death and other abnormal things? I'm a strong believer since my childhood.. I've always known there's something out there.. Something we can't really see or feel with our own eyes or bodies..

At first I was scared.. But as I grew up I knew someone out there is protecting me.. I've always felt safe and I've always felt that I had a lot of luck.. Maybe it's my grand-mother who passed away.. Maybe it's an angel.. Idk.. But I feel that I'm surrounded by good spirits..

2 Days ago I had a dream.. I won at the lottery.. But it was an unknown prize.. All I saw was the numbers 22,7 and 4 marked right before I woke up.. When I woke up I didn't know what to do with the numbers.. I've never played at the lotteries before.. I've never had such dreams.. So one day passed by.. I never thought much more about it and other than that I've been so busy at work to really figure out what to do..

Today I went to get some gas.. I just gave it a thought.. What if I buy the scratch things and choose those numbers that appeared in my dream.. I had no other choice than just pick 22 because they were out of 7 and 4..

I didn't expect to win anything actually.. It was just for fun and it didn't hurt to try once.. To my astonishment I found out I won $100.. It's really weird.. but it has happened to my mom and aunt a long time ago too..

Either it's some power from above who are trying to give me some extra money.. or it's Karma because I've been buying my family a lot of stuff and Karma is repaying me... I don't know.. But I know for sure the money is not gonna get wasted.. I'm gonna use it wisely.. perhaps give it to people in need.. I don't know yet.. But I'm not gonna spend it on me..