Prince of Persia

Yesterday me and my sis decided to go to Hong Kong Buffet and eat.. after that we went to Lowes to buy some garden stuff.. When we came home again we took Bailey out for a walk in the park.. Later at night we decided to go and see a movie.. at first we wanted to see Sex and the city 2.. but we changed our mind and chose Prince of Persia..

I actually liked the movie.. it was worth to see the best part is I didn't fall asleep.. I always have a tendency to fall asleep when watching a movie.. lol

Right now I have a million thoughts in my head.. Memories are repeating over and over again..

Looking through my pictures gives a little pain in my heart.. Not because it's bad memories.. but because they are to good to be true.. it makes me think: What a beautiful world we're living in..

"Don't dwell on memories - appreciate them for what they are and for the person they've helped you become."

When I finally find a little time between my busy schedule I isolate myself from the world and start to live in my own universe..

I wish I could take some days from my past and replace it with tomorrow.. But it doesn't work that way.. so I keep telling myself.. I can't change the good past.. But I can make my future better.. - Everyday is a chance to start over..

"The nights I don't dream about you, are the nights I stay up thinking of you.."

I'm silently praying

A good day

Yesterday was a loooooooong but good day..

It started out with me and my sis waking up at 8.30 am.. We were planning to go around all the vets and grooming places for dogs to put up Mozart's flyers..

Ren offered to help us driving around cause he had a navigation.. He came to us at 9.00 am.. Since he was there, we asked if he could spray around our house with the spray that keeps the insects out.. it works really good lol.. Cause I don't see the insects around our house anymore..

At first we went to Barnes&Noble to find all the vets and grooming places for dogs around Winston Salem.. We found 15 places..

I set up the Navigation.. and then......... TEAM KITTY was ready to go. *lmao*.. Isn't it cute? Ren refused of c.. but somehow I managed to draw the Kitty on there..

After driving around the whole Winston Salem, we went and ate lunch at Mizu. My Bento box hihi..

My sister had a hair appointment at 3.30 pm.. When she was done we went to buy some supplies for nails and Lowes to buy some garden stuff for our garden hihihi ..

Never knew garden work was this hard.. There are ROCKS in the soil which made it really hard to dig.. People must think we're crazy.. doing garden work when it's dark..

The day ended with a Balloon fight and a movie.. The Spy Next Door with Jackie Chan..

Last night I had a fight with mr.greenishfly.. it was huge.. normally if it's not in my room I would have left it alone.. I tried to chase it out but it just kept flying around round round my fan lamp.. So I took a broom and smashed it.. of course it didn't die.. But it couldn't fly no more... somehow I picked it up with the broom and threw it down into the toilet seat... then flush flush...

I've been flushing down 2 living creatures in one week.. amazing..

You make me lose control

*closing my eyes, counting to 10*

10 seconds later...

*opening my eyes and smiling*

This is my way to control my anger.. I'm trying to not get stuck to minor problems that can be considered irritating..

As a result.. I've changed a lot from back then.. I had such a childish behaviour..When I view myself from back then, I have to say.. I was such a psycho..

Obviously I've been gaining a lot of experiences in my life.. I see other people's mistakes.. and I admit my own mistakes.. that's why I now can see stuff in a different perspective which is preventing me from exploding.. I feel so much more mature lol...

Smile for a brighter life

Just wished that I had my sis's natural smile..

People are complaining that I barely smile on my pictures.. So here I'm trying to smile. lolol.. =) FAIL.

It's Wednesday already.. me and my sis day off..

The day started with a phone call.. One of our worker called in sick.. Me and my sis were about to go to work but then my uncle called and said he had people who could replace our co-worker..

Been doing a lot of shopping for the shop.. the van was so heavy that me and my sis could barely push it.. When I say heavy.. it was so heavy that when I pushed it, it didn't move lol..

Going to the movies in an hour =D gonna watch Death at the funeral

Mizu

Today we went to eat at this Japanese restaurant Mizu.. OMG I've never been this satisfied before.. I don't know if it was because we were all starving or if the restaurant really was that excellent.. j/k .. Everything was fresh, authentic and delicious even though we came so late.. Nothing was greasy just simply amazing..

There were NO leftovers on the plates.. we could as well lick their plates lol.. Even the plain sallad they served us in the beginning tasted delicious..

Seriously Mizu is my favorite restaurant from now on.

Lace pumps

I'm in love with my shoes.. Lace pumps by Guess.. Completing a black boring outfit.

I own a dozen of black skinny pants.. Can't live without them.. Hate my legs.. Jealous of those who have long skinny legs.. and a nice butt.. Mine are completely the opposite..

Long and slow day

Good evening.. Today is pretty slow at work.. more a relax day.. Been eating food from yesterday's b-day party.. Jeanette's son turned 17.. She brought us a lot of food + cake..

Tonight me and my sis decided to go to the gym.. just hope that our customer's won't come in late today.. We usually come home at 10.00 pm even though we close at 9.00 pm.. When it's past 10.00 pm me and my sis get tired... I hope we get out of here at 9.00 pm tonight..

Your happiness is my happiness

The weather is still GLOOMY! I want some sunshine coming through my window.. instead I'm wrapped up in this cold atmosphere...

I've been having wild dreams lately.. it feels like my inner self is trying to send me a message.. But I can't read or understand it.. The dreams are fading away, therefore I can't really remember what they are about.. Yet, the images in my head are very clear.. I'm not scared... just confused..

Lost

I can hear the sound of the pouring rain outside... The sound of it is like a beautiful symphony to my ears.. I feel so calm, yet lonely..

I'm still lost on my way to find happiness.. My heart is containing the most secretive things no one will ever know.. My inner weaknesses keeps destroying me..

I'm crying alone to silence this pain that has been surging through my veins..

helpless...defeated..

It's Sunday morning.. just been in bed all morning drinking coffee.. Watched all the episodes of ANTM cycle 14.. even though I wanted the other girl to win, I have to say the winner really deserved it. She put her whole heart into the competition and really fought for it more than anyone..

We've all heard the saying, "Don't judge a book by its cover!" Unfortunately, we do, it's not nice but we do it anyways. The most common reason we tend to judge a person right away by their appearance are for security reasons.

Its just natural, automatically we look at people and if they appear well dressed, smiley and attractive we have a great first impression of them as this is the type of person we want to be around. However if someone looks dirty, grumpy and badly dressed we will automatically avoid this type of person. Sad but true.

Flushed away..

I just got up from my bed and needed to use the bathroom.. I heard some noises coming from the toilet seat so I took a look down in the seat..

U can never imagine what I got in sight.. I saw a freaking hair-raising rat swimming in the toilet seat.. SHIT! wtf should I do?
My sis didn't feel good and was sleeping.. it was 3.10 am.. I wanted to scream.. but I didn't.. But I neither wanted to go through this by myself so I had to call my sister who was sleeping so good in bed..

Me: Haaaaaavy.. help help... it's a rat swimming in the toilet seat.. oh my God it's creepy! What should I do?
My sis was like: wtf.. gross.. is it big? close the toilet seat and flush it..
Me: ?!???!?!?!

I didn't want to go near the rat so I took a long-ass stick and closed the toilet lid with it.. then quickly flushed..

I hate killing living creatures.. I think they deserve to live.. usually I chase them out of the house, but this time I had no choice.. I think Rats can handle water.. I just hope it didn't suffocate in the water.. or else it wasn't his lucky day..

I am still freaking terrified by the incident..

When I still lived in Sweden I loooved Fridays.. I always felt relaxed Friday afternoon after school.. Fridays were days I could hang out with my friends without feeling guilty about not studying..

A year ago at this time I should be hanging out with my friends..

My memories are really captivating me.. I would do anything to re-live my past.. It was so peaceful.. I felt so care-free and happy.

"God creates simple life for us; we are the ones who make it complicated."

My passion

I had a customer who's self-esteem is very low.. She's really pretty but thought that she wasn't pretty enough for her boyfriend. We had a long conversation as I was doing her nails.. in the end she felt much better..

I have to say I am not the prettiest girl, neither the hottest and my self-esteem is not very high.. But with the life experience I've had, I've gotten more confident with the years..

I'm not gonna deny this, but when I was younger I was ugly.. I was born ugly. The world is so cruel(nothing we really can change).. It's hard to grow up in an environment when the prettiest people are taking the lead.

I was this random girl who always wished to be pretty and come from a wealthy family.. Unfortunately I wasn't.. Our family was different... We worked hard, saved, saved and saved.. My mom did everything in her power to provide me and my sisters the best things we could afford for.. the rest of the money went to people who had it worse. Everybody else got new toys/stuff/label clothes every week.. But me and my sister were happy with what we got and never asked for anything more.. it was hard enough growing up as a non-swedish.

I was considering to other people very quiet, ambitious, smart, loved to play sports, super friendly and very creative.. But all I wanted to be was pretty. whenever somebody gave me a compliment I knew they were lying straight to my face..

I always looked in the mirror and tried to adjust my body parts, I wanted to replace everything on my face, my body..

Everytime I drawed a self-portait of me it always looked like somebody else.. much prettier.. A classmate said: this looks like you but in a nicer version.. I mean wth? kids are very honest sometimes..

Being a natural beauty wasn't my thing.. But I was blessed with a skill..

When I grew older I finally knew how to use my skill.. A skill so valuable... And together with the skill I created some magic..I would never want to be a model.. (not that I could become one anyways) But I found a passion for art and photography.. I love creating beautiful stuff in any kind of way.. I just love the result of the moment I've created something breathtaking.. Therefore instead of just sitting down and complain about how I looked like, I started to find my ways to gain more confidence..

Sunshine

Feeling a lot better right now.. but my stomach is still weak.. Been sleeping all day, just took a walk with Bailey around the neighbourhood..

He seemed to be happy walking around in the sun.. Had to take advantage of the sun cause I don't get tp see it very often.. Working most of the times.

Wednesday

Yesterday me and my sis were off from work.. We had some stuff to do, errands to take care of..

In Greensboro we tried this Italian restaurant BRAVO. It was a fancy restaurant.. The food was good.. well it's because I'm not a picky person.. I think that 90% of the food I eat is good..

After the dinner we had to continue to take care of our stuff.. We also decided to shop a little.. Been working really hard so I had a lot of money to burn..

I bought these super comfy flip flops and some high heels.. Trying to look for summer shoes but haven't found anything for my taste..

When we came home I felt really ill..We planned to go to the gym.. but I didn't feel good at all so I told her I wanted to stay at home.. We took Bailey out for a walk instead..

When returning back to our house I felt so sick that I threw up.. it was only water though.. cause the food I've been eating must have been gone during the day.. it was 9.30 pm.. I was spending 30 minutes in the bathroom feeling sorry for myself..

Today I'm resting at home.. if we get to to busy I'm gonna try to go to work.. but my sis is telling me to stay at home.. cause she consider that the health is more important..

My sis in Bravo

Come back soon!

I remember when we were younger.. I was so anti-lesbian.. Me and Carolina never gave each other hugs.. never held each others hands.. I told her I would never ever in my life kiss a girl on her lips.. Still haven't kissed a girl on her lips and will never do that..

We were such tomboys and did all pranks we could come up with.. we never cared what other thought about us and just did what we felt like doing.. Our imaginations are WILD!

The only times we gave each other hugs were when I, during the summers had to leave Sweden and go to the U.S for 2 months.. It's just recently that I actually don't feel awkward holding her hands and giving her hugs.. not mentioning sleeping in the same bed.. I can't believe after all these years we've never got into a fight with each other.. we never fight..

we are from 2 different worlds but our personalities are so alike that it almost scares me whenever we think alike..

Sushi!

This is what we ate Sunday instead of buffet After this boat I was full already..

And then we got more rolls..

and some more tuna..

Guess if we were bloated?

Bon appetit!

Last night I set my alarm clock at 7.00 am.. I had a hilarious dream about my bff Carolina.. omg she always crack me up.. even in the dreams lololol...

anyways. I was laying in bed until 7.30.. Got up and started to cook.. My taste buds aren't on top in the morning.. But it's delicious..

I made some Mi-style beef stew and some thai-style beef sallad(goi Thai) that we can bring to work... tired of eating noodles and fast food..

Right now drinking my coffee and stalking my friends =) haven't found the charger to the camera yet =( but thank God I have my lovely DSLR camera I got from my sister as a graduation gift ^____^

New week

Yesterday and today was busy.. really good for business.. but a lot of work..

Me and my sis decided to eat buffet after work yesterday.. but it was to crowded and the line seemed endless.. so we called Ren and asked if we could come and eat sushi.. I took some pics.. but the cam is dead right now. can't seem to find the charger. =(

Just got out from the shower... been at the gym after work today.. I ran 4 miles.. a little disappointed.. but it was late so we needed to go home.. Hope I get a good sleep tonight.. I've been having wild dreams that are still giving me chills..

good night.

Good morning.. What a wonderful day.. Happy Mother's Day..

Here, I offer u a morning pic of me when I just woke up. Do u see my pimple? lolol must be from eating noodles.. But tomorrow I'm gonna cook!

Have to get ready for work.. kisskiss ♥

Look I found a very cute key chain holder ^___^ only $1.99..

Quick update: Lim is here, he came last night.. Worked all day yesterday, Wal Mart after work and then just cleaned the house.. Ate raw salmon as dinner lol. (sashimi) I liked it.

Going to work now. Have a nice day lovers!

Caramel Mocha

Good evening.. This morning I ordered a Caramel Mocha hot.. and got a Caramel Mocha Frappuccino instead.. not really what I wanted.. but didn't wanna make a big deal out of it so I just took it, smiled and walked away..

Been busy this whole morning.. wanna eat something.. but not hungry.. Ate a Biscuit that a co-worker bought for me as breakfast..

trying to find something to eat cause I'm gonna be busy later.. but ended up writing this blog entry instead..

well well.. can't wait until I get home... home sweet home.. and continue on my drama.. or maybe Naruto, depending on my mood..

Coffee Prince

Good morning.. Laying on my bed drinking coffee.. I love that feeling in the morning.. Yesterday was so busy.. I worked until 10.05 pm..

Found a drama to watch, Coffee Prince.. It was hilarious even though I've only watched 1 episode..

I had the weirdest dream last night.. I was dreaming about this little baby.. I was talking to his mother... after a while the baby died.. I asked who his father was.. she replied: I know it might be weird but he is his own father..

Guess if I wasn't confused lol..